It's over

I feel like a HUGE burden has ben lifted from my shoulders. I don't know how i would describe my first semester of law school. It was everything that i thought it would be, and yet i managed to not be prepared... That pisses me off because i really feel like i prepared myself well and then just didn't follow through... that's typical, but still frustrating.

Exams were ok. I think i did ok, but once again, i could have done better. I have a lot of ideas of how i plan to handle next semester, hopefully i'll be able to accomplish those goals.

The countdown has begun

Exams are in less than a month....

Maybe you didn't see what i typed...

EXAMS ARE IN LESS THAN A MONTH!!

Now that i've yelled that I don't feel any better but it was kinda fun to type it.

The good news is that it is entirely possible that i will do well on my exams. The bad news is that it is going to take every ounce of concentration i have available. I'm reaching to the depths on this one.

I sat down and devised a plan that will ensure good grades and it's completely possible. The problem is that there are 100,000,000 other things that need to be done simultaneously. But like i told my friend... don't panic and don't give up.

Mid Term

I would say that midterms are a blessing and a curse. i have had midterms in two classes... one doesn't count at all and the other could count if i did better on it than i do on the final. Let me just say that if i do worse on the final i need to find another profession.

At any rate, I took my contracts midterm on Monday. I walked in after about 5 hours of sleep and without having studied at all. Now sometimes people try to say they haven't studied but they really mean that they didn't study that much. I will put it like this... I am about 100+ pages behind in the reading and I didn't open my book since the previous Thursday. So i didn't study AT ALL. I also didn't have two of the three books that i needed for the midterm.

My performance was laughable actually. I mean what else could i do? I can't let it get me down b/c there's nothing i can do about it. But you best believe a change is gonna be made before the final.

Falling behind

That's what i'm doing... and to be honest i dunno if i'm gonna catch up

It's Picking Up

The amount of required reading is definitely increasing. Unfortunately i don't feel like i've found my comfort zone yet. But i am able to keep up with the reading and i know how important that is. For some reason there are certain classes where i feel like the teacher is speaking another language.

The worst part of having ADD is that it's not like you can just set your mind to it and fix it. Today was my first time being called on in Torts class and I swear it was like she was speaking a foreign language. I'm not sure if it was because i didn't have complete mastery of the material or what but it was like i couldn't understand her words... it created a bunch of anxiety.

*sigh*

Better luck next time

Week 2 Comes to a Close

I'm not even sure where to begin. I'm exhausted... I know that much. But it's more than just waking up at 6:30 and not leaving school until 8 or 9. It's more like the mental health issues. It's no secret that i suffer from a couple of mental health issues and it's also no secret that i am probably a bit worse off because of situations i put myself in. I'm cool with all that and i have no problem admitting that. I do have a problem when it affects what i do on a daily basis and that's where i am now.

I've made an appt with the campus' psychiatry dept to be probbed, evaluate and tested all over again for ADD. I am sure that i will need to provide additional documentation from my past psychologist and psychiatrist and all that stuff. That doesn't bother me... What bothers me is the fact that i will be required to meet with them once a week. That is a hug time commitment and i'm not sure how it's all gonna affect my studying

I guess only time will tell

I can see trouble a mile away

So i'm starting to see exactly what classes i'm not gonna like or at least that i will have trouble with and contracts is one...

This class does not hold my attention AT ALL. Next week the plan for this class is to leave the laptop in my locker and take some old fashion notes. I'm not sure what it is about the class or why i can't/don't want to pay attention but everyday that it happens, i fall a bit further behind and i need to nip that in the bud ASAP.

I guess concentration has always been an issue for me. I think that this setting is the first time that i can actually say, "I'm gonna need to know this" so i want to be able to focus and pay attention.